Have you ever heard the song "You Know Me?" Through listening to Pandora Radio, I discovered this beautiful song. And oh my word. I listened to it every day at least twice a day for a week straight. And cried every time.
I find it so darn comforting. Listening to the words makes me feel like I've climbed onto the lap of my Father God and I'm comfortably resting my head on his shoulder. I find it comforting because I can trust that no. matter. what...God knows me. Therefore, he knows what I need. And what I can handle. And that I can endure so much more so much better when I'm resting in his comfort and strength.
So even though there are parts of this season of life that are difficult I can trust that He know ME!! He knows my heart. He knows my deepest desires, and he knows best.
It reminds me of Psalm 139. Which reminds me of a time back in college.
It was Junior year. I had decided at the beginning of the year to give up dating for an entire year. No dating, no "talking," no messy emotional relationship with a "guy friend," nada. It was something that was prompted by the Lord and I knew it was the right thing for me at the time.
You see, I had spent a lot of time caring WAY too much what boys thought of me. Have you seen Little Women? My sisters and I watched it all the time growing up and had assigned ourselves to each character, except Beth but she dies anyways so she didn't really count. Kind of by default, I was Amy. She was the youngest child like myself, but she was SOOOO dramatic, certainly I wasn't quite so dramatic-clearly I had a lot to learn about myself. Anyways, at one point Amy says, "I've waited my while life to by kissed!" That was me. So wanting a boyfriend. So wanting to be kissed. After a couple relationships, now broken, I knew something was not right.
I had gotten to the point where I didn't even know what I had to offer in a relationship. I knew I was a pretty good cook and would possibly be a good mother-but thats it, thats what I had to offer. I realized that though I was quite "secure" when in a relationship where I had someone who was always there to love and affirm me, I was feeling more insecure as a single 20 year old.
So I began reading Psalm 139 everyday at least once, for a few weeks, maybe a month. And I was shocked! As I read it over and over again I began to realize how much God knows about me. He knows every flaw, He has witnessed every sin; yet, He loves me so much! And no matter where I go, He's committed to staying beside me. David says, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." in Psalm 139:14. And since that was recorded and its in the Bible, I believe it is something that is true of all of us. So I am Fearfully and Wonderfully made, I am a Wonderful work of God! I began to learn more about the things that were unique to me, and tried to stop longing for the gifts other people had. And I began to be more okay with who I was.
God is so gracious with us. And he loves us so much. And we are so valuable. And he knows us so intimately and deeply. And He knows how to take care of you and love on you better than anyone else. Believe it, because its true.
And listen to "You Know Me" when you start to forget.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVVlMQved8k
